THE FIXX!!!!!
- Wonder
- Jul 14, 2023
- 8 min read
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What’s up y’all?!
This week has been an experience. I’m trying to be cool I guess when I say that. I’m gonna just put all the bullshit aside, this week was hard. I don’t really know how to feel sometimes. I don’t know if I’ve ever lived a more real life than I was today. I know myself better now than I ever have, I don’t know if that happened as you get older automatically, or did everyone have to do as much work as I have to actually know who the fuck I am. Today’s 14 July and I had just been separated for maybe a month or two. So much has changed since then, it’s amazing how time works it’s magic. I’ve learned to be much more patient with myself, and others, which is probably a really good thing. I’ve gotten a lot closer to my family closer than I’ve ever been before, trust me, believe in me, and I have the ability to be present. I’m still neurotic as fuck. I worry all the time I want to stop, I want to just be able to relax. My brain goes 1000 miles a minute, but not like in an ADHD kind of way . I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression, my whole life, my PTSD, and sometimes stop me in my tracks, and it’s funny, people expect me to just bounce back. I’d like to look at it like the “ look like nothing happened” look. To look like nothing phases me at all. I’ve been really good at doing that since I was about 11 or 12 I would say.
Which is a good place to start if Fridays, real story, the music. This week I playlist is awesome, just like it always is. However, it’s very different in the inspirations. I have also been watching, binge, watching, the new season of Queer Eye. If you do not know what the show is, you should.
I have been watching it for years .. like 10 yeah… and after more than ten years since the original series ended, Netflix has brought back "Queer Eye" with a fresh Fab Five and a new setting. Instead of the busy city of New York, they're now traveling to different communities around Atlanta. The style experts build relationships with men and women who often have different beliefs than them, leading to moments of social commentary mixed with style advice. These wonderful humans are helping people transform their lifestyles are the food and wine expert, Antoni Porowski, the interior designer, Bobby Berk, the grooming consultant, Jonathan Van Ness, the fashion designer, Tan France, and the culture expert, Karamo Brown, who you might remember from "The Real World: Philadelphia." David Collins, the creator of the original show, is also on board as an executive producer.
One of the big things I take from that too really push… Helping people transform their lifestyles !!! That’s what it’s all about, transforming. I have transformed myself in recent times, I have become a much stronger and driven person. I have realized that I have a passion for advocacy, and a desire to help others around me, no matter their creed, color, gender, or whatever. I feel like we’re here on this planet to build a community. I feel like we’re here to work together, not pull each other apart. We’re in crazy days. Life will never be the same after Corona. However, I learned who are wise, and who I am today. I’m forever grateful for that.
So this show…
Originally, when I started watching the show, I was amazed, I couldn’t stop binge watching it, and when I ran out of episodes, I would watch them over again.
In remember that The series caught on like crazy, and became a total worldwide sensation during the release of its second season in the summer of 2018. Queer Eye season 7 premiered in May 2023 to great acclaim, but its first season, released in February 2018, features some of the series' most touching makeovers.
It In the first episode, called "You Can't Fix Ugly," the guy was Tom Jackson from Georgia. His daughter nominated him because she thought he really needed a change in his boring life. The Fab Five gave him a total transformation, both inside and out, and even helped him reconnect with his ex-wife, Abby (who they knew he was still in love with). Tom and Abby got remarried in 2018, but sadly, the Fab Five announced on their Queer Eye Instagram page in March 2023 that he had passed away from cancer.
Like What??!!! Right !?
With that being the first episode, I was totally hung up on watching the show always. I have followed a lot of the different lives of the Fab Five. (I’m pretty sure I have to use capitals on that now.) I am completely obsessed with Jonathan. Or JVN s he is knows by many. when I get obsessed with someone, I usually try to learn a lot about them, his overall outlook on life amazes me. All through his trials and tribulations he has done nothing but stay positive, and reap the benefits of positivity. In so many ways. There are a few things that he advocates for that I am also an advocate and proudly uses their platform to raise awareness for a range of issues, from breaking gender roles to living with HIV and advocating for access to healthcare.
I say YES ! YES! YES!!!!
I also went and saw Antoni Janusz Porowski who is a Canadian TV personality, cook, actor, model and author. He is the food and wine expert on the Netflix series Queer Eye (2018–present), and I love this human… a lot I drive all the way to Hanover college to see him perform, and cook live. It was great! He’s a super hot hottie.
Bobby Berk is this Amazing , real and gorgeous one who won an Emmy for being a TV host, an author, and an interior designer. You might have seen him on Queer Eye on Netflix, where he's the expert on interior design. Karamo Karega Brown is another cool guy who's into hosting TV shows, being on reality TV, writing books, acting, and making the world a better place. He started out on MTV's The Real World: Philadelphia way back in 2004, where he was the first openly gay black dude on a reality show. These days, you can catch him on Queer Eye on Netflix, where he's the expert on culture. Tanveer Wasim "Tan" France is a fashion designer, entrepreneur, and all-around cool AF human who's all over TV. You might have seen him on Queer Eye on Netflix, where he's the fashion expert, or hosting the web series Dressing Funny, or co-hosting Next In Fashion. He also wrote a memoir called Naturally Tan that came out in June 2019. Oh, and he's one of the first openly gay South Asian men on a major show, and one of the first openly gay Muslim men on Western TV.
I’m sure you’re thinking wow what a list of achievements, and not only that but they come in to peoples lives and really help them dig into their inventory and what makes them tick. What they really need to succeed in life. Not to mention what really makes them happy, I think that’s why I love watching the show so much. And it’s inspiring to me and makes me crave my real happiness. Which is what got me into doing what I do today. I write, I may not be super famous, and I may not have published my book yet, but I will. I also cook, I love food, developing a love affair, with food is help me battle of my anorexia, bulimia and body dysmorphic disorder with leaps and bounds. I like to be of service, I like for people to know that they’re not suffering alone and we’re all in this together. I became a yoga teacher, and shortly after that became a Buddhist. If that says anything about the culture and how overwhelmingly enveloping it is, I love my faith, and I continue to love everyone else’s as well. I learned that being a Buddhist, I learned that you can love people and still detach. I learned that you can be scared and strong at the same time. Watching this show always puts me in a good mood, it always gives me good ideas and makes me think. And it always makes me hungry, thanks, Antoni!
So here I am on Friday evening and I’m listening to my playlist and just let the week go away. My family really doesn’t want me to share jack shit about them online so if I seem cryptic, that’s why. However, my father was really fucking sick this week and it scared the shit out of me, he comes from a generation where it’s not OK to not be OK, which is why I suppose everybody expects me to bounce back and my family. But it’s OK. I’m OK I used to think a lot of things about myself. I know now that I can hold myself accountable for what I do and what I don’t do. I’m grateful. tonight I’m really grateful that I have a platform to share how I feel when I have nowhere else to go. I got into a fight with one of my friends earlier and just told them I just needed them to listen, I guess they think I talk too much which may be true. However, when I write, I can talk all I want, I can say what I mean, and mean what I say. I don’t have to worry about hurting someone’s feelings because if I do, they can stop reading. I find solace and comfort in writing it all down, putting it on paper, which is what I learned from many programs. I am a creative, and one of the reasons I write playlist is so I have something to listen to when I’m doing yoga, put makeup line, paint or write. Music is my everything, except for Nata.
The Music
So this week it has a lot of prideful music on it!!! I know it’s not pride month anymore, but I am proud to be a queer pansexual Demi sexual person. I’m in between whether or not, I’m going to be gender conforming, I really feel OK the way I am and respect my body, how I am presented, except for my body dysmorphic disorder, which makes me think I am not who I am at all. I’m looking to transform from that into excepting who I am heart, soul, body hair, tits, and ass. I just want to love myself. Most of this music is absolutely amazing in my book, I hope you enjoy this week… It features some of my favorite from Queer Eye, and some Clash and Queen for my girl Candy who is getting hitched tomorrow.
I missed Tori in Louisville this week so she’s on here a lot.
I don’t really have much more besides that this week I follow up next week. Things are kind of probably just kind of start to flow. I’m always gonna post on Sundays, Tuesdays and Fridays I’m always., always, always.
Going to post a playlist on Friday. I’m gonna do my best to keep you posted about how I’m dealing with my crazy life and probably get a lot more personal but that will happen later as always I love you for reading.
Here are a couple quotes from Natala this week
“It’s OK to stay inside, when it’s hot outside. Life is better cooler.”-Nala Grace
“I was born this beautiful, my ear is my trademark.” Nala Grace
And one from JVN
“Imperfection is beautiful. To anyone who has ever felt broken beyond repair, this is for you. If you’ve ever been excluded, or told you were not enough, know that you are enough, and beautifully complete.”Jonathan Van Ness, Over the Top: A Raw Journey to Self-Love
I’m Well
You Be Well too♥️
Wonder
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