Depression
- Wonder
- Jul 27, 2023
- 5 min read
A tough pill to swallow?
I have been asking myself for about six months whether I should explore other medication options for my panic attacks, in addition to what I currently use. This week's blog post is late because my depression hit me hard. In this post, I'll delve a little deeper into what depression actually is. I'm being honest about this because mental health is a serious issue for a lot of people. I reached out to some of my closest friends and family members this week to gain some clarity. I don't mind asking people I love for help, but the reason I had to call them was because I haven't been able to see my therapist for what seems like forever. I truly believe this is due to the way mental health is viewed in America, where it's not considered as important as physical health. That's nonsense.
I will most definitely loose my mind if I do not take care of my depression. I say that with a touch of seriousness that it needs to convey just how difficult it is to keep a Willd ass mind in check. I am embarking on an experiment. I have set a few goals, ones of which I think to be realistic.
1. 1. 1To get all, I mean ALL of my finances in order.
2. Find where my heart wants to settle (job, home etc.) e
3. Buy Dirt
4. This all while I am writing my books, blog and screenplay.
That's pretty much it. It's what I want and need to do to end this toxic, codependent, and depressing style of life that I have been living for far too long.
Yesterday was a long day. I know I usually post my blogs on Tuesday, but sometimes life gets in the way of my schedule. Actually, it always gets out of my control. And if you want to get technical, we have no control at any time. The moon is waxing, and when that's the case, I just have to take action. I had to get moving yesterday. I was also overstimulated early in the day, which caused me to have a debilitating panic attack. I'm not sure if it happened because I couldn't grasp my reality 100% or because the waxing moon energy hit me so hard.
When the moon starts to shine bright with the sun's reflection, it's time to get moving and commit to pursuing the heartfelt desires that you discovered during the new moon. The spiritual meaning of this moon phase is all about energizing and putting into action the intentions that you've committed to.
Don't forget to make time for exercise and move your body more than usual, but be careful not to overdo it! Keep your intentions written down on paper or your screensaver to remind yourself what you're working towards. And if you need to, take a breather and reflect on your progress towards your true desires.
Usually, I don't like to be super social. However, this moon energy almost compels it out of me, even if it's not my inclination. Fortunately, I work with the public and had some time to talk to friends on the phone. I started to feel better after work. I get stressed, and when that happens, it sometimes shuts down my whole body. I have been handling some aspects of my life with kid gloves. I came to the conclusion yesterday that it has to stop. As I said before, the codependent care has to cease. I have to stop worrying about all the things that could occur and start living my life. I may not have much control, but I do have my mind. So, instead, I took yesterday to be sad, talk to the people I needed to speak to the most, and do some research. I even found out that I may have a hookup to buy a house in the spring!
Goals. I am grateful for the drive I have to fulfill my dream of happiness on a back porch with my dog. That's all I want: a simple life outside of advocating and being of service. Service is a huge part of life, and presently, I am learning to be of service to someone who wants nothing to do with my help. In that case, I have had to re-evaluate and just do the next right thing. In any case, that could be just walking away from an abusive conversation so it doesn't get worse or doing chores that have not been asked of you, yet you know they need to be taken care of. It's easy to get caught up in the reasons why we shouldn't help someone who is rude, harsh, or just plain mean. However, I have found that if I just walk away, try to ignore the negativity, and move on to the next positive thing I can do, my mind no longer revolves around the ins and outs of who deserves it. Instead, I end up on thoughts of joy, happiness, and staying in the present.
Depression is a real thing,
According tothe National Institute of Mental Health, “Depression (also known as major depression, major depressive disorder, or clinical depression) is a common but serious mood disorder. It causes severe symptoms that affect how a person feels, thinks, and handles daily activities, such as sleeping, eating, or working.
To be diagnosed with depression, the symptoms must be present for at least 2 weeks.
There are different types of depression, some of which develop due to specific circumstances.
- [Major depression](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/statistics/major-depression) includes symptoms of depressed mood or loss of interest, most of the time for at least 2 weeks, that interfere with daily activities.
- [Persistent depressive disorder](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/statistics/persistent-depressive-disorder-dysthymic-disorder) (also called dysthymia or dysthymic disorder) consists of less severe symptoms of depression that last much longer, usually for at least 2 years.
- [Perinatal depression](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/perinatal-depression) is depression that occurs during or after pregnancy. Depression that begins during pregnancy is prenatal depression and depression that begins after the baby is born is postpartum depression.
- [Seasonal affective disorder](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/seasonal-affective-disorder) is depression that comes and goes with the seasons, with symptoms typically starting in the late fall and early winter and going away during the spring and summer.
- [Depression with symptoms of psychosis](https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/understanding-psychosis) is a severe form of depression in which a person experiences psychosis symptoms, such as delusions (disturbing, false fixed beliefs) or hallucinations (hearing or seeing things others do not hear or see”
I have personally suffered from depression on and off for as long as I can remember. It can debilitate me, much like my panic attacks, which are often brought on by depression.
Given the state of the world and the way people treat mental health issues, it can be scary and intimidating to navigate the hoops and red tape. I was listening to President Biden talk about the landmark law that went into effect in 2008, which states that mental health should be treated like physical health in the eyes of insurance. However, it has still not been taken seriously, and insurance companies continue to create loopholes. In some cases, a patient would need pre-authorization for every single visit and paperwork filled out by their primary care physician to advise insurance. His exact words were, "You get referrals to the mental health professionals, but when you make the appointment, they say 'I can't see you until your doctor sends in the proper paperwork to get authorization from the insurance company,' ... followed by 'Give me a break.'"
Read the ABC article: White House pushes private insurance companies to cover mental health care
At the end of the day, things will work out the way they do, for we have no real control. I do not have much to say beyond that. I am living in an exhausting state of thought and analytical processing. A follow-up on the state of my depression will come as the days go by. I always look forward to Friday - it is the playlist man.
As always, I love you for reading Be Well
Wonder
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