Raw Meat: The Heart.

It was Monday, when I started this blog post. Today is Thursday and It’s finally up. It took me some time because I was coming off of a very difficult Valentine’s Day week.Already I had an overwhelming sense of dread encompassing my being. Not because of pain, not great of a war, not having a panic attack, and not in a manic episode. I am 100% heartbroken, and the funny thing about it is is that I can just talk about heartbreak, without ever getting into the details.

I am sure you have our someone you know has lived through a broken heart. I knew people who didn’t live through it. Tragic, yes but true nonetheless. That breaks my heart just to think of it, love killing someone. The front man for Joy Division killed Himself shortly after him and his wife got a divorce or split up. I know that’s really sad but when I’m really sad I think of really sad things.

This brings me to my topic, heartbreak 💔 What exactly is heartbreak? Right here right now I’m about to dissect heartbreak and why I feel the pain is unreasonable and how I plan to get over it and move on. Mind you I’m moving on within my relationship not moving out of my relationship. I really don’t think I could live without my partner, however when two people don’t see eye to eye for whatever reason and can’t talk about it what are you do? Especially when you can’t just give up and walk away, because you love this person…..

Now, we all know heartbreak , as big of a bummer it v is. It happens to be a a piece of our mortal lives. Yes, I agree, it is gut wrenching, overwhelming, and downright ugly. I hate to say it , most of not all of us have been there, or close, and I believe we all want to evade ever having to endure heartbreak again.

I don’t know about you, but I feel heartbroken most often when I have a loss in my life. Now this loss can be a number of things. I’ve lost people, to death or life. I’ve lost animals, I’ve lost friends that didn’t die, sometimes I miss them the most. I’ve lost jobs, I’ve lost my nerve, I’ve lost faith.

All of these things equate to essentially coming to realize that something I’d either love or care very much about or something I wanted more than I could imagine didn’t come through. Today I deal with it much differently than I used to, however it doesn’t mean that I think I’m doing it all correct which is exactly why I decided to investigate this further.

Heartbreak triggers such a massive amount of strain , mainly if the loss unexplained and unexpected. Such stress can influence tons like how we processes our emotions, it can manifest physically, and can take years to recover, sometimeQs I think you sometimes never really do. There is so much that we have no clue wwa when it comes to the game of love, heartbreak and the effect all of this crazy, ridiculousness has on our anatomy, scientific investigations provide us with some breadcrumbs that explain why heartbreak assists in helping you tear yourself apart like it does me. Or if it makes you sick. I’ve taken the time to gather some things that I think might be helpful and then I might be using in moments of distress, darkness, and heartbreak.

According to author Meghan Laslocky, who writes books about this kind of thing, The passion may be so intense due to both the sympathetic and parasympathetic activation systems are precipitate simultaneously.

So, let’s talk parasympatheticsystem, it happens to be the part of the nervous system that controls the more relaxed functions like digestion and saliva production. It slows heart sspeed and breathing. Now for the sympathetic nervous system. This bad boy (or girl ) prepares the body for movement. It controls the “flight or fight” mechanism, hormones roll through the body to increase the heart rate, and wake up muscles. So it happens that if both switches the flip on at the same time , it

Is one hell of a roller coaster. It helps to explain the mood swings, the emotional bursts as well as the physical pain and overall dis- ease.

Now I’m gonna tell you what I found out about hormone levels, those are things that always scare the crap out of me. I am a person that is bipolar and an addict. My hormone levels have been off the charts before and it was not pretty to say the least. I will just leave it there for now maybe will get into that and another blog. Back to the hormones, dopamine ahhhhhh what a friend. According to www.healthline.com, “Dopamine is a neurotransmitter made in the brain. Basically, it acts as a chemical messenger between neurons.

Dopamine is released when your brain is expecting a reward. When you come to associate a certain activity with pleasure, mere anticipation may be enough to raise dopamine levels. It could be a certain food, sex, shopping, or just about anything else that you enjoy.” Coming from somebody that’s been in recovery for 18 years, this hormone, chemical or cwhatever you want to call Is it one of those things that I will always miss when it’s depleted.

And then there is oxytocin, according to www.your hormones.info, “Oxytocin is produced in the hypothalamus and is secreted into the bloodstream by the posterior pituitary gland. Secretion depends on electrical activity of neurons in the hypothalamus – it is released into the blood when these cells are excited. There are two main actions of oxytocin in the body are contraction of the womb (uterus) during childbirth and lactation. Oxytocin stimulates the uterine muscles to contract and also increases production of prostaglandins, which increase the contractions further. Manufactured oxytocin is sometimes given to induce labour if it has not started naturally or it can be used to strengthen contractions to aid childbirth. In addition, manufactured oxytocin is often given to speed up delivery of the placenta and reduce the risk of heavy bleeding by contracting the uterus. During breastfeeding, oxytocin promotes the movement of milk through the ducts in the breast, allowing it to be excreted by the nipple. Oxytocin is also present in men, playing a role in sperm transport and production of testosterone by the testes. In the brain, oxytocin acts as a chemical messenger and has an important role in many human behaviours. Oxytocin is a hormone that acts on organs in the body (including the breast and uterus) and as a chemical messenger in the brain, controlling key aspects of the reproductive system, including childbirth and lactation, and aspects of human behaviour.”

So there you go you have two Distinct chemicals that are responsible for allowing your body to relax and be able to accept pleasure and the pleasure senses. So well let’s talk about what happens when those chemicals are replaced by a chemical called cortisol. Let’s embrace the nature of cortisol, it really is a ready made siren, or human ADT security system. It’s the human body’s superior stress hormone. It Has a kind of mutual collaboration with The neurological side of things that helps to keep your motivation, Beer sensors and your moods. Your adrenal glands make your cortisol, I know people that already have issues with her adrenal gland so I can imagine heartbreak is 10 times worse for them. Maybe not I guess if your cortisol doesn’t produce what it needs to produce you won’t get is upset?! Back to the science, According to www.webmd.com, “Cortisol plays an important role in a number of things your body does. For example, it:

.Manages how your body uses carbohydrates, fats, and proteins

.Keeps inflammation down

.Regulates your blood pressure

.Increases your blood sugar (glucose)

.Controls your sleep/wake cycle

.Boosts energy so you can handle stress and restores balance afterward

Sooooo…. At the time , when heartbreak occurs , the hormone levels of dopamine and oxytocindrop and are replaced with , yep you guessed it. the wonderful freeze in fearhormone cortisol. The hormone which was created to support your body’s fight-or-flight Reaction. However, when too much cortisol can be bad over a long period of time. They say, the scientists, that it can cause acne, weight gain, severe memory loss as well as physical sickness…. I don’t know about you but I think I felt all of these when heartbreak has occurred in my life. Great news on the horizon, usually the symptoms don’t last very long and I don’t need treatment by medical professional. However if you ever do have symptoms of a heart attack contact a medical professional because it’s better to go to the hospital thinking you’re having a heart attack then not going to the hospital and actually having a heart attack. And this shit does happen.

Personally I plan tonight allow myself to get to the point of heartbreak. I plan to infuture situations manage my stress levels accordingly to what I think might be going on in my hormone levels. I take great pride in my meditation practice and I am humbled at the fact that I can sit long enough to probably get my mind wrapped around just about anything however many people including my loved ones don’t have that accommodating mind. There are times when when should seek outside help.

There’s no shame in feeling like you’re not coping very well with a heart break – as we’ve seen, heart break can be a big shock to the system.

If you feel like strain, A constant feeling of ominous depression or even sets of disappointment and anger don’t seem to pass, and if you can’t get your life back together, I’ve been there before, don’t be afraid. Take time to talk with a friend, family member or even investigate therapy. There are great apps out now like headspace, or Better help. Most of these apps have specials that go along with them they give you so much of a discount off your first month. So really it’s worth it to try it.

Heartbreak I think is a lot about learning to love yourself. Like I started in the beginning of this article when I feel heartbroken it’s usually due to a loss of some thing. When I really reflect on how I feel when I lose things, it’s usually abandonment or feeling as if I wasn’t good enough for whatever it was to stick around. In recent times I’ve had to learn a better route I’ve had to stick around for myself and not just disappear and disassociate in times of calamity. I try my best to accept the impermanence of life and respect that I have no control.