Harvest Moon

”But there’s a full moon rising” -N. Young

Hello friends. I hope this finds you as well as you can be. I imagine that the warm vibes from this micro moon are embracing you tightly, even if it does appear about 14% smaller in the sky. An apogee moon is one that is on it’s orbit, furthest away from the earth. However that may be, I feel stronger now than ever before.

I have begun to allow my creative spirit mingle around a bit more than usual, and it has been so refreshing. I think that sometimes I forget how much I used to enjoy my talents as a creator. Feelings however get in the way of my perspective. A trusted wise friend said something to me this week,” Stop making permanent decisions for temporary circumstances,” ... what genius.

Here I am, living my life. One day at s time. Until recent, I I mean very recent times I have always been the one to use the words never and always very loosely. My grandmother used to always tell me to not go off the deep end, and I remained in the deep end for about 25 years. When I woke up one day I realized that I was sick of dog paddling, remember that stroke that you learn at the YMCA in your youth. The stroke that is absolutely exhausting after you’re stuck in 10 feet of water and you know if you fall under the water you will drown. I have found that life is very much like that when you live in extremes.

Growing pains are the definition of what I’m going through in these moments. I am having to relearn how to feel certain things, actually everything. One of my most trusted mentors , Pema Chödrön , said “If we learn to open our hearts, to anyone, including the people who drive us crazy, can be our teacher.” This moons embrace brings much light to this topic. Being able to balance things that you are connected to and things that you trust is very difficult. I tell my little girl on a regular basis how much I love her, but no matter how much I love her it doesn’t make it always easy to like her at the same time. We butt heads, in ways I never thought I could disagree with someone. It’s almost like she does it deliberately, I’m actually sure she does it deliberately. Sooooo in the past I would genuinely lose my shit. Accosting myself with words, blaming myself for not being able to get her to listen, calm down or just be reasonable. When in all actuality and I have come to realize that there’s absolutely nothing I can do to make her realize her actions are causing her suffering, anymore than I could make an addict realize that their addiction is causing their suffering. Intern, I must look at her with kind eyes and explain to her how much I believe in her and how I believe that she is better than the way that she acts, and that her actions tell her truth.

Today marks a very auspicious day being a full moon. Therefore, Thursday has come on a even better day to read cards. I read my cards on Monday, I had five cards fall into my detail cards. It was overwhelming. I have ramen it upon myself to use yet another reading from later in the week.

The Situation, no not from Jersey shore, the issue, intention or dilemma card. It reflected my mind in thoughts, many thoughts . I close my eyes and see the child I was. The directive Spirit that drive my heart. I was the loner. I was the one that loved to paint, dance and listen to progressive rock out punk. I have always used my mind to build from nothing, make things that one writing back garage beautiful, and embrace the grace in tragedy. The first card I pulled this week was the Six of cups. A tall tree resides within a space surrounded by six cups. The

Roots are vibrant colorful reaching into the past and allowing one to remember all that they have done that is brought them to the moment that they are in, the precipice where one can use all their talents and grow to the greatest potential. This card access to remember who we once were, and the simpler times, embrace that and find the truth the one seeks.

In following the three cards that I pulled next we are highly informative. Judgment has shown her face again and my spread. Just as it did in last weeks reading it ask one to see forgiveness. To continue to be compassionate and even the most difficult situations, especially when loved ones send us to our edge. That bird is flying amongst the others and leading the way this is now the time to take the highroad and the low blows with grace and ease. Following judgment came another card of the Cubs suit. This time not such an abundant card but very wise. A rat sits under a crescent moon upon for cups. An outsider may see a very calm and collective situation something that one would call a lucky person. In this reading this card could most definitely represent the fact that we don’t always appreciate what the universe gives us, and should probably not look A gift horse in the mouth, or more like bite the hand that feeds us. I really enjoy that cliché. Just because things are horrible in an arena doesn’t necessarily mean they couldn’t be any worse. I remember watching Schindler‘s list when I was young it’s such a great movie what a wonderful representation of a person who saved so many people. In that movie during the beginning of the clearing of the ghettos there was a Jewish family standing in a room with no beds, running water or anywhere to use the restroom. A father looks at her wife and says how could this get any worse, not a few moments later 30 or 40 more people show up to the small room. Appreciating what one has and not taking for granted the goodness that surrounds them can often be the default, and demise of all that is glorious. Understanding that we are exactly where we should be in this moment is a privilege that not many have, and many more should realize. This reading was ended with a very bright card. The sun represents a time of enlightenment and awakening, much like after the 49 days sit hard to spend under the fig tree one can come to appreciate and except the way life really is, and not just the way it’s perceived. And abundance a vitality, those words make me smile. As if for all of my ailments were to be wiped away, wouldn’t that be amazing. Representing that wonderful things can come about and even in the darkest times is what I gather from this card. The sun does a lot of work to radiate all of its energy I saw the planets especially our planet the earth can house, protect, feed, and serve i’ll sentient beings without question. How lucky of a race are we, how blessed are a species such as us to be in complete wonderment of the fact that we have the ability two choose the difference between right and wrong. It is but another thing that separates us from the animals. This card also makes me want to go outside. Which is why I plan on doing a releasing ritual tonight, on this beautiful apogee moon, it’s fullness will come to Peak tomorrow. I look forward to checking back in touching touching base after I spend some time in a pumpkin patch tomorrow.

May you be free of suffering and May happiness surround you in those desperate times.

I think of something I heard once, it helps to keep my persisting clear. “ Know the rules well, so you can break them effectively.”

~ Dalai Lama

Be Well

Wonder