Blog 12:20

ToTomorrow…. actually I think it’s the day after tomorrow, is it winter solstice. It’s finally here, winter. That cold, crisp, chilling season that makes everything seem like it’s on pause. Hibernating like the bears in their caves. I wish I could hit the pause button on my like sometimes, I wish I had a whole damn remote for my life like that movie Click with Adam Sandler. Christopher Walk Ken was in it too, it was really good, not the whole movie, that Christopher Walken part.

Speaking of rewind, I wish that I started feeding my dog better food earlier. My daughter was sick last week so I bought her a book, really it was a magazine of sorts. The title was. “ inside your dogs brain.” I’m pretty sure it was a Time Life magazine, it was one of those ones.. y’know it was like 15 dollars or some shit like that. I got sucked into it because she was sick, and I knew she was at home feeling bad. I have her read every single day, she reads with me three times a week. She has a certain type of dyslexia that really messes with her, and I want her to be prepped for high school. So….. I make a read a lot, I read a time. I think everybody should read more. Feel like if more people read, instead of just looking at TickTock more people would have not voted for Trump. That’s a whole Nother blog. A box it’s water under the bridge now.

Back to the topic at hand, I started feeding my dog better food. The whole food thing started a couple months ago. I started cooking her ground beef and rice because she had either eaten something that upset her stomach or I had fed her wrong for so long and allowed her to eat junk food it messed up her pancreas. I woke up one morning to her shitting blood, and about had a coronary at the same time that would have sucked. had to go to vet and the hospital on the same day. I scared the crap out of my wife that morning when I was literally digging through my dogs poop, to make sure there was nothing sharp in it, I was convinced that she ate something she wasn’t supposed to eat and it was tearing up her inside. That wasn’t the case, she just has a really sensitive stomach, dogs have a really sensitive pancreas is and they cannot eat the way that people eat.

It’s kind of funny she’s one of the reasons I got sober, or at least stop drinking, Now she’s probably gonna be one of the reasons that start to eat better. I have a trying to better too. I fill my life and all the comfort food. Neverthelessthey drove me into hysterics and I started cooking her food every day which wasn’t really a big issue. Then Hayden and I started reading this book-magazine that I bought her. Then an article about a dog living longer , About a book called “Forever dog”. I bought the book. It explains what helps dogs live longer.

In this article, my daughter read to me, there were more than one veterinarian along with farmers and other dog owners , of dogs that lived over 20 years. The veterinarians and dog owners all came to the conclusion, separately, that to feed your dog less like maybe four or five days a week, and feeding them Whole Foods , cooked foods which in turn is cheaper I’m finding out. in comparison to the specialty food I was buying my dog after she got sick.

Today I went to the grocery to get some things for the fam, the amount of processed food my family eats it’s pretty freaking disgusting,, we’re talking like a ton of GMO and sugars and sweeteners and carbohydrates and boxes and preservative I could go on and on and on. I married into that life, and have done my best to educate my family on what they are eating. I however am a recovering anorexic and have a comfort foods. My dog now eats better than anybody in the house. Comparatively to the money I spent on the processed food at the grocery my dogs food was only in total $19 give or take. The rest of food I bought the family was well over 60 or $45 and it wasn’t even that much food. It’s all the five dollar boxes of cereal and macaroni and cheese cups. Do you think some of the stuff is good but it really isn’t.

I bought chicken breasts, blueberries, baby carrots, and Mahatma rice took it home. I boiled the chicken, and cooked the rice busted up and some blueberries chopped up a carrots. II mixed it all together and fed my dog a full bowl of fresh home-cooked food. I cooked enough to be able to microwave it on a daily basis. and I fed her at least two cups of food fresh food

. To be honest with you I’m pretty proud of myself, they say that animals help us love ourselves and the reason I’m feeding the dog better is because I want her to stick around as long as possible, come to think of it I bet my wife and daughter think the same thing about me. I’m really going to try to do better…. and I’m gonna use my blog. Even though I’m not doing it every day… again, yeah yeah ….I know, at least I’m doing it once a week and I do have a Tarot report for the week. I’m still figuring out how I’m going to get all the stuff together, and get it all balanced in a routine. It takes a while to figure out a balance and it comes to this type of stuff. I also pulled a part-time job, raise a 13-year-old daughter, and run a household.

All in all I like to say today was a pretty productive day. Came in contact with some pretty crazy shit and handled it pretty well. I also learned about some thing today, I learned that it’s OK to take a nap in the middle of the afternoon I won’t fall asleep and sleep all day. I’ve been convinced that I would fall asleep and sleep all day and I took a nap for a very long time, and that didn’t happen I woke up feeling refreshed that doesn’t always happen either. Tomorrow’s a new day, tonight I’m gonna really sit down and try to work on the schedule, I’m gonna watch a Christmas movie with my dad and my daughter. I’m really trying to be present in my life taking the time to do what I’m doing right now, while my daughter is playing a Holiday scrimmage with her teammates for a soccer get together.

I wanna write all the time, I need to write all the time. I need to finish my fiction book, the rest of it I really have enough content to be able to publish a book. I’m trying to figure out exactly how I want to do it I really just need to sit down and figure it out and execute, figure it out and execute, that’s what I need to do. A friend of mine finished her book, I’m really proud of her, and it inspires me to work a little bit harder and get this done for myself as well. Here’s to blueberries, carrots, chicken and rice, here’s to boars head deli meats and Lacy Swiss cheese I love cheese and roast beef sandwiches. I. My life is very easy to embrace right now and that’s what I’m attempting to do listen to my body, pair my breakfast myself and Liz wholeheartedly. Eat more blueberries. Drink more water. Give us Mountain Dew. Just some goals. They are a bit advantageous, at least a Mountain Dew.

Be Well