8/10/20 : Stepping out of my comfort zone.

We have come to the last quarter moon tomorrow at 12:44 pm. Which must be why I feel the x way do right now. I have been walking around with this chip on my shoulder like my knowledge is better than everyone else’s. I don’t actually think that my knowledge is better than others, I just really would like to be recognized for what I do know. Especially when it, the recognition, comes from someone that you really respect and how close to your heart.Adding to this lovely last quarter moon, is the fact that it’s in Taurus. I guess I should be grateful for that, being that patient and giving nature. Hopefully it will help me push toward a goal instead of sulking for hours at a time because I don’t feel appreciated.

As I started paying more attention to my website, and blog and less time on other things, I have been able to test things out and decide on the things I want to add to my website and aspects I don’t really need to share with people, ever. One of the things that I really enjoy doing is reading tarot. I learned how to read tarot at a very young age. I remember using the rmRider.Waite tarot deck, I think any aspiring reader started there. I also learned how to read playing cards very young as well, those are the type of cards that Marie-Anne Lenormand read for Napoleon. Nevertheless, I find great respite when I read the tarot, especially for myself. I always tell people tat i read for, to attempt to look at a different perspective when in times of struggle, the tarot helps me do just that, takes me out of my current mindset and replaces it with something the logic has the ability to form a more correct/valid picture. I usually do my tarot once a week on Sunday or Monday, it usually depends on the phase of the moon. Tomorrow starting the last quarter things always get a little weird for me so I figured I would read it today instead of Sunday. I’ve currently been dealing with the same things everybody else has, being in quarantine with my family has proved to be one of the most difficult things I’ve ever endured. With that being said I couldn’t ask to be stuck with two of the most amazing people on this planet.. Even though the amazement lies within these walls are question myself on a regular basis. Being human is not easy, being a parent is even more difficult. I definitely give mad kudos to any single parent that does this on their own and has a full-time job. I look toward a future that makes No promises because it doesn't need to , moving forward in my life I plan to be a homemaker and the best parent I can possibly be. I also would like to continue writing, teaching and becoming the best recovery coach I can for anybody who needs me. I needed a little guidance this week, my feelings are down my heart is full and I’m absolutely exhausted.

I chose to do a clarity spread, I use the spread quite often it never usually makes a fool out of me when I read it for other people. I am reading from The Wild Unknown Tarot There are four cards in the spread. The first card is “topic of situation”, The following three cards more kind of turn up and down the volume on the original card. You could say the other cards are kind of like accessories To an outfit, or complements to a meal.

Our opening card this week is the High Priestess. This card was just what I needed to see, and had actually been in my tradings more than once in recent times. It represents a still, quiet, and calculating mindset. A person who pulls from the intuition within. I relate very much, I see myself begging to slow down and breathe. In stopping and closing my BB eyes, and using my other senses, maybe they will become stronger.?

The other three cards cane as follows:

Father of Pentacles

The Emperor

Temperance

Of the things I question regularly are things like, “am O going to actually finish my book, this month, this year.... “ you get the picture? Or a question like “am I the worlds biggest failure as a parent?” Yes sir those are serious questions, that deserve the same kinds of answer. The three contributing cards blew my hair back a little, if I had to say. In a force all together I am acquainted with a strong sense of solidarity, and constant learning. Those are two things I personally think no one should take lightly. I also see the need for patience and respect. Knowing the phrase “ You get more bees with honey “ exists is an understatement. One will need to embrace the totality off being compassionate, and only then will one be able to heal and our recover properly. Attempting to rush these things breeds disregard and disaster.

I feel as if the universe speaks to us in elusive and mysterious ways. Maybe they are playing with us? I can only have faith that I’d I look deep enough and work hard enough it may just come to fruition. I think of how metal is tempered, how you treat it differently. This next quarter In plan to take slow, as as my Gram used to say “keep your eyes and ears open and your mouth shut.”

I am sure I am not the only one who cities benefit from me listening better, Ave keeping my two cents to myself. ‘Tis why I write this blog. I am still working out all the qwerks and building more awesome content. I hope to start zoom classes soon! Thank you for reading, and being a pest if this life. Thank you for teaching me. Stay Lovely. Be Well.

Wonder